Sunday, June 15, 2008

Youth Camp: Revision Party 2008, Being Pwnd by Proverbs and the Afflictions of 2 Corinthians

It appears that the occupational density of my registered place of residence will revert to normal for the next week or so. Hooray own bed.

Youth camp was fairly brilliant. Most of the campers were due for exams after the school holidays so it was a revision party of sorts: the campers clocked in hours revising but also had time to explore a relationship with God, play games, take all sorts of silly photos of themselves, tell dumb jokes, tease each other and of course, eat constantly. The senior campers ("scampers") made good use of the sports facilities at Prince George's Park Residences on the fringe of the National University of Singapore campus. Fully worth the S$80 per pax camp fee, I say.

Hazelnut Chocolate Spread and Wholesome Bread for Breakfast
Some mornings, there was good old bread and spread for breakfast.

Cheese Omelette for Breakfast
Other mornings, the lovely scampers got enthusiastically creative with the trays of eggs.

Vietnamese Pho and Spring Rolls for Lunch
The wannabely-named Foodgle Hub food court supplied lunch, which was for the most part quite passable. Except for the bland Chinese store.

Dinner, happily, was home-cooked. And the dessert was a real highlight:

Raspberry Pavlova for Dessert!
Behold the raspberry pavlova.

Banoffee Pie for Dessert
Behold the banoffe pies. "Not as good as the ones at the last camp," said a repeat camper,"the bananas you used this time aren't as sweet". What gourmand monsters of the future are we moulding?

Pound Cake and Brownie
Behold the lemon pound cake and brownie for breaks between talks and studies.

Scampers Playing Cranium
The scampers indulged in board games and basketball during revision periods, and even came up with a new game involving scoopball scoops, old tennis balls and Flingo bibs. Excellent. And better yet, the bright eyes that got wider and wider as their place in biblical history dawned on them progressively as we worked through Vaughan Robert's God's Big Picture.

An example of one series of dumb jokes:
"How do you put an elephant in the fridge?"
"You open the fridge door, put the elephant in and close the door."

"How do you put a giraffe in the fridge?"
"You open the fridge door, take the elephant out, put the giraffe in and close the door."

"One day, all the animals had a meeting but the giraffe wasn't there. Why?"
"He was still in the fridge."

"One day, Tarzan was swinging around in the jungle. He went over the crocodile-infested river, lost his hold on the twine and fell into the river, but he wasn't eaten by crocodiles. Why?"
"Because the crocodiles were at the meeting."
*Major groan*

Wide Game: Making Ice-Cream
The wide game went well for once this year. I've been progressively dumbing them down through the years and this one was so juvenile that I was afraid it would be too boring, but surprisingly, everyone loved it. The highlight apparently was getting to make their own ice-cream: imagine high girls shrieking, "Oh! This is better than Ben & Jerry's! Now that I can make my own ice-cream, I will never buy Häagen-Dazs again!" Meant for the game to demonstrate (1) chemical reactions in a pleasant yummy way - the cola geyser with Diet Coke and Mentos, and the endothermic reaction present in adding sodium chloride/salt to ice to make the ice-cream; and (2) how to live wisely in the world - first, knowing/checking where one should be heading before setting out (one group was on a bus to the far end of campus because they hadn't read the clue properly) and secondly, relating properly to one's neighbours (I was careful not to mention that this was a competition. Making the ice-cream required the co-operation of both teams. The initial reaction from the first team was, unfortunately,"Quick! Hide our clue! Don't let them see it!" and that from a leader no less. One hopes he was merely playing the devil's very persuasive advocate.).

Evidence that Studying Took Place!
Oh and, erm, here's evidence that there was actually some serious studying going on. And serious snacking too.

Am glad for the encouragement of 2 Corinthians at the ARPC church camp (videos and audio here) that directly preceded youth camp. I'd been struggling to understand the Book of Proverbs, going at it late into the Shanghai and Malaccan nights to no avail and feeling terribly pwnd.

Drive from Malacca to Singapore
It wasn't until the late night drive back to Singapore after church camp, amidst the "unflappable!", "unsqwackable!" banter, the shameless making of matchmaking plans and the exhaustive run-through of everyone's ipods, that the truth of 2 Corinthians occurred to my rather dim mind. But it wasn't really till I was driving home, too tired to read directional arrows, after youth camp that the same truth shone in a little further.

Pwnd by Proverbs
No Bible-believer would ever expressedly claim that we contribute anything to God's work. We mouth the right doctrine that the harvest is God's, but we actually think that our seed-planting and watering skills are what make the crops grow. Or I realised I did anyway. After sweating over Proverbs for 2 whole weeks, I was exhausted and burdened to the point of tears by the responsibility of having to teach God's word which I could scarcely understand in the context of the whole Bible. What's wrong with me? I asked, am I going mad? What was wrong was that I'd always assumed (but would never have admitted) that understanding God's word was dependent on my own intellectual capabilities. But how could a sinful mind understand Scripture? Only through the revelation of God through the Spirit.*

We are jars of clay (2 Corinthians 4:7), the cheap disposable crockery of New Testamental times. We bits of almost-nothings really like to collect little scout badges and hang human accolades around ourselves when in fact, we are nothing fancy, nothing special.

Said the apostle Paul:
We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us, but life in you. (2 Corinthians 4:8 - 12)
The weakness and brokenness inherent in our fallen humanness is no obstacle to the treasure of God's gospel. The fragrance of the gospel and the salvation of others does not depend on us but on the efficacy of God's work. Paul doesn't lose heart when he is afflicted, persecuted and struck down, because it is the gospel which contains power not he. In fact, the weaker he is, the stronger the word (2 Corinthians 4:7), for no man can both give the impression that he himself is clever and proclaim with honesty that Jesus alone is mighty to save.

By the end of youth camp, I was so tired out by the lack of sleep and early mornings, and with anxiety and with being angry at myself for being anxious and not relying on God, that I feared I was becoming rather slurry and incoherent during Bible studies. Those who presume to teach will be judged more severely (James 3:1), yet we know that no one is sufficient for the job (2 Corinthians 2:16b).

It is humbling yet liberating to know that despite our weakness and sinfulness, despite that person who pontificates about Bible truths so forcefully and eloquently yet fails to live them out in his life, despite that other person who thinks the world of herself and self-righteously judges and criticises everyone else and says "I cannot eat this stuff!" about food others slaved so hard to prepare, it is God's Spirit that penetrates and does his will in those whom he has called his children.

Sadly, our hearts and minds are so perverted that sometimes, even if we do not misuse this knowledge to jettison personal responsibility for working hard at understanding Scripture and growing in godliness, we think that our weaknesses and afflictions mean that we are more holy and we boast of our pseudo-martyrdom.

Yet even our afflictions are not opportunity for self-centred self-pity:
God of all comfort...comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. (2 Corinthians 1:4)
When we are afflicted, it is primarily for the benefit of others, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves have been/are being comforted by God. It is not about sharing our experiences per se (ie, so that only those who have been afflicted with cancer can comfort others afflicted with cancer) but sharing how we have received consolation from God - that God's grace alone is sufficient for us each day.
...we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. (2 Corinthians 1:8b - 10)
In his grace and his love, God does tend to take away things we didn't realise we relied on - our family, friends, wealth, health, job, self-esteem - to make us rely on him alone. It is in times like that that we realise that we hadn't quite been dependent on God as we thought we had.
You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many. (2 Corinthians 1:11)
Again, we are sometimes so self-centred that we are unwilling to share our needs with others. We ask people to pray for us not as an act of self-indulgence but for their benefit - to prepare them to give thanks to God, not that we are healed by that God has kept us and persevered us in our affliction.

We may have experienced the mundane sort of life that does not lend itself to speaking engagements. We may never have experienced childhood sexual abuse at the hands of a close relative, the trauma of a broken family, nor a dramatic conversion from a life of crime and gangsterism and drug addiction. No one will ask us to tell our testimonies; no speaker will use us as sermon illustrations; commemorative books will not list us as "Warriors of the Faith"; Readers' Digest will not pay S$150 for an article on our insipid lives.

But our goal is not dubious fame amongst humans but to do our duty sincerely and honestly in the sight of God (2 Corinthians 2:17). Our goal is not an accumulation of Bible knowledge but growth in godliness, in Christ-likeness, so that even as we live in this life, we are being transformed daily into the image of the Lord, from one degree of glory to another, through the Spirit (2 Corinthians 3:18).

I pine for the Day that we shall look at each other and find all who'd trusted in him greatly changed so that we are all mirror images of Christ himself. But in the meanwhile, we do not lose heart, knowing that he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us with the believers whom we serve into his presence (2 Corinthians 4:14).

PS: There is nothing like a youth camp to be reminded how old one is: the lack of stamina, the lack of suppleness and the young campers who cannot conceive of an adult above 21 years who isn't a senior citizen. We could despair as our body breaks down and as we become less "relevant", but though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal (2 Corinthians 4:16 - 18).


PPS: The key to Proverbs is possibly Proverbs 22:17 - 19:
17 Pay attention and listen to the sayings of the wise;
apply your heart to what I teach,

18 for it is pleasing when you keep them in your heart
and have all of them ready on your lips.

19 So that your trust may be in the LORD,
I teach you today, even you.
The ultimate aim of this collection of wise sayings is not so much to help us with day-to-day living as to enable us to trust in the LORD. How? By showing us a glimpse of the order of the created world that, according to Romans 1:18 - 20, ought to tell us plainly of God's eternal power and divine nature. See also Peter Sanlon's article on Proverbs 1:20 - 33 Knowing Wisdom, Knowing Jesus.

PPPS: I later discovered that the bottle marked "Vanilla Essence" in the fridge had actually contained calvados. This might have contributed somewhat to the craziness after the ice-cream-making.

PPPPS: This was the first camp I'd scored a proper bed thanks to the B. It was a Seahorse mattress and built exactly like a plank of wood. Am now a new convert to the technique of sleeping on one's back. This should greatly lessen the risk of, erm, cot death. And, I am told, wrinkles.

Edit (17th June): In a fit of youthful over-enthusiasm, one of the campers has started a fan group for the camps on Facebook and invited all his friends. He's also changed his FB status to say that it is better to be at the camps all the time. Some of the scampers say they have been suffering camp withdrawal symptoms. I expect the new heavens and new earth will be far better than anything we clay jars can offer in this fallen world. But to enjoy that people have to first come to saving knowledge of our Saviour.

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

Proverbs, Job, Ecclesiastes and Order

It's funny how you have to read the whole Bible to erm...read passages or books of the Bible in the context of the whole Bible.

Yeah, it's one of the most important mantras of good Bible reading that whatever passage or book you've got your paws on must be read in the context of the whole Bible, the over-arching purpose and workings of God in thousands of years of human history.

But it's difficult to read in context when...well...you don't know what the rest of the Bible says. You could acquire good books on the subject which trace the different strands of the one coherent story in the Bible for you (like Vaughan Roberts' "Big" series or Graeme Goldsworthy's writings, especially his "Gospel and..." series). Yet somehow, you don't quite get it until you get your hands dirty and wade through the Bible yourself.

Got a glimpse of this recently while paddling through Proverbs. There was this overwhelming theme of order: order that can be perceived in the world, order within the entire human race, a common order that transcends time, place and circumstances. This daily pervasive order found in even the most mundane haggling for fish in the market is a gift from God. Fear God, be righteous and you will be rewarded. Simple cause-and-effect.

But we all know that this isn't an accurate reflection of the world we live in. Not all nice people win in the end.

Enter Job.

Before Proverbs-paddling, spent the last few months reading and re-reading Job (Job's so-called friends are really lor sor!). Seen together with Proverbs, Job clearly shows the hiddenness of order. There is no simple cause-and-effect: fear God and you may not be rewarded. In fact, the righteous Job who is commended by God loses everything and comes within an inch of losing his own life (in fact, with all the suffering he was going through, he wished that he had indeed lost it). There is an order higher than the cause-and-effect we know so well in our world, an order known only to God that we cannot perceive.

Most teenage bloggers will have you know that they don't perceive any order whatsoever in the universe and in their lives. Everything is meaningless.

The first book of the Bible I read as a Christian was Ecclesiastes. You can imagine how flummoxing it was. The wise teacher starts off whining like an angsty teenager (but more poetically than most):
"Meaningless! Meaningless!"
says the Teacher.
"Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless." (Proverbs 1:2)
Order is absent in the universe, it suggests. The world is messy, chaotic and disordered. Confusion befuddles everything. And so, life is completely and utterly meaningless.

Or so it appears.

Yet, there is order in the universe and meaning in our lives, says the wise Teacher:
For God will bring every deed into judgement,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil. (Proverbs 12:14)
There is an end to the messiness and the chaos and the disorder of the universe. There is a God, and there is order in the universe created by God, an order that has been confused by sin. In the End, the God will restore order again and in this restoration, he will judge us for everything we have ever thought or done. Therefore, advises the Teacher, the only smart thing to do would be to
Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man. (Proverbs 12:13)

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

Negotiations and Reading Proverbs

We hit the ground running.
  • 0900 hours: We check in. I check out the free shots of Baileys at dutyfree
    before we all adjourn as usual to Brek for a carbo load in preparation for what might potentially be an all-night marathon session (a good move considering the utterly tasteless excuse for food on SIA later in the day) and to discuss strategy.
  • 0933 hours: The girls decide on the Dumb Blonde Strategy.
  • 1116 hours: We board, mess around with the plastic airplane food, peruse the Financial Times and the Business Times like proper businesspeople, then the girls haul out the laptop.
  • 1145 hours: The girls proceed to discuss their concerns in relation to the project in impeccably audible fishmarket voices.
  • 1146 hours: The legal shushes them.
  • 1146 (+ 1 blink of an eye) hours: The girls continue unabated in talking-on-handphone-on-MRT voices.
  • 1146 (+ 2 blinks of an eye) hours: The legal shushes them again. [and on and on in Fibonacci progressions, until the plane lands]
  • 1359: We exit the airport and the humid wall of hot air thick with the smell of unwashed bodies hits us. Our driver rescues us, navigates the tinted-window monster through the mad traffic of horn-blaring shiny SUVs, dusty wrinkled cart-pushers, death-wish becaks (trishaws) and kamikaze bemos (enclosed minibuses) and delivers us to an office of polite gentle people and a toilet with no flush.
  • 1500: The Other Side arrives for negotiations.
  • 1501: With the rapid power of ERP gantries, the girls assess the Head of Legal for the Other Side: their quick eyes take in the limp wrist, the sashay, the obvious effeminate lilt, the gentle inclination of the head, the Betty Boo handphone cover...there is a shocked silence...then they giggle... The Dumb Blonde Strategy will cut no path in this terrain.
  • 1502: One of the girls hustles us into a spare room, shuts the door and announces viciously,"Let's eat him!" [this obviously sounds less vulgar in Hokkien, which is in essence a language made up of rude words anyway]
  • 1848: Negotiations are still ongoing. HOLOS starts dabbing peppermint essential oil preparations onto his pulse points.
  • 1956: Negotiations are still ongoing. HOLOS dabs more peppermint essential oil preparations onto the same pulse points.
  • 2019: HOLOS runs out of handcream. The empty tube makes rude sounds under the table.
  • 2023: The girls offer him Kiehls Ultimate Strength Hand Salve. They exchange moisturising tips.
  • 2100: HOLOS is very gay cheerful thereafter. Negotiations wrap up smoothly.
*******

It wasn't all a starvation farm though. We were well-fed: lucious lapis from Igor's, smooth chicken noodles from Depot 3.6.9, sweet fresh crabs and butter prawns from Seamaster, tempeh (the only concession to warung street food), huge boxes of Dunkin Donuts, massively delicious tahu goreng and the most tender barbequed ayam goreng-ed in sweet peanut sauce washed down with refreshing jeruk manis...

The living wasn't too shoddy either. We were chauffered everywhere so we didn't even set foot on a pavement let alone sniff more than a few seconds of air that wasn't air-conditioned. Security personnel cleared the roads for us. Connections opened doors. Home was a cushy suite

with remote-controlled curtains, a comfortable kingsized bed, feather pillows and a tub to soak in.

Sampled the inhouse local delicacies...

oops I mean...


Of all the amenities however, the long soak in the tub at the end of the day was most welcome. Finally got some peace and quiet to read Proverbs in.

Proverbs is really long: 31 chapters in all! It's also a rojak of wisdom: "these are also the sayings of the wise" reads Proverbs 24:23 (the word "wise" being in the plural), the named authors being Solomon (1:1-9:18; 10:1-22:16; 25:1-29:27), Agur (30) and Lemuel (31).

Tried to cut through the mass mess by first establishing the purpose of the author(s) of this compliation. This is nicely stated upfront:
for attaining wisdom and discipline;
for understanding words of insight;

for acquiring a disciplined and prudent life,
doing what is right and just and fair;

for giving prudence to the simple,
knowledge and discretion to the young-

let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance-

for understanding proverbs and parables,
the sayings and riddles of the wise (Proverbs 1:2-6)
A quick read-through showed that the wisdom this compliation seeks to impart is not the sort found in silly abstract intellectual debates with philosophy students at the university pub nor the strict liability laws of morality and ethics that are to be pedantically followed. This wisdom is not to satisfy intellectual curiousity nor to help you succeed in life by winning friends and influencing people.

Wisdom seeks to shape your worldview and mould your behaviour. Wisdom teaches you the true way of looking at life and the right way of behaving with that worldview. This right way may not be the same in all situations. The author(s) of Proverbs show this clearly in adjoining and seemingly contradictory wisdom statements, eg.:
Do not answer a fool according to his folly,
or you will be like him yourself.

Answer a fool according to his folly,
or he will be wise in his own eyes. (Proverbs 26:4-5)
Both the basis of this wisdom (Proverbs 1:7) and the goal of this wisdom (Proverbs 2:5) is the fear of the LORD. No one can be truly wise unless he acknowledges the LORD as God and so stands in awe of His righteousness, His almighty majesty, His unreachable power and then, having no other as trustworthy, trusts completely in the LORD with humble dependence, trusting that His words about the world and about our situation are true and accurate in every aspect, and trusting in His goodness towards us.

What does the LORD say about the world through the wise men of Proverbs? A fast trawl -through yields statements which are:
  • value judgements: that one thing is better than another, certain kinds of behaviour are right and good and others are evil and bad etc;
  • purely descriptive: that do not make any judgements of behaviour but simply describe things as they are, eg.""It's no good, it's no good!" says the buyer; then off he goes and boasts about his purchase." (Proverbs 20:14); the common sound of Singaporean aunties in Chatuchaks all over the world, through all ages...
  • cause and effect: eg.:"Pride goes before destruction; and a haughty spirit before a fall"
This shows that as unclassified and uncategorised the contents of Proverbs may look, the world portrayed by Proverbs is not chaotic but ordered. Proverbs tells us that there is an observable regularity to certain sorts of behaviour that is part of the stable structure of reality.

This structure of reality is far from being an independent closed system. God created the world and continues to govern the world in all its aspects. Everything in the world is subject to his scrutiny, judgement and control, from the "weights in the bag" (Proverbs 16:11) to the outcome of the lots which are cast (Proverbs 16:33).

In the LORD's world, there are 2 types of people:
  • the wise, who recognise the LORD and the order that He has established in the world and live according to that order (Proverbs 3:1-10); and
  • the fools, who refuse to recognise the LORD and the order that is in the world and all ends in disaster for them and their associates (Proverbs 6:6-15).
How do we become wise? The fear of the LORD is the beginning and the goal of all wisdom. So in Proverbs 30, as Agur traces his journey from foolish ignorance to wisdom in the LORD's world, we see that his search for wisdom and quest for instruction ends when he finds the words of the LORD. For there Agur finds the instructions for life from the Lifegiver himself.

More than abstract intellectual philosophy or fake spirituality or unworldly Zen riddles in quiet bamboo groves, wisdom is about living life to the full, living immersed in God's world where the good order He created has been complicated by the intrusion of sin and chaos; living in the disrupted world that we all know yet not conforming to it because we have the instructions for the truly good life from the Creator himself.

Can't wait to sink my teeth into more of this!

For those going to ARPC's church camp this year, Joshua Ng has done some published work on Proverbs:
  • FOCUS Sermons
  • Bible Brief in #283 of The Briefing (mail me if you need a copy)

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